So its been nearly a year...

Wow, how time flies. I have tried my best this year, I really have. I have had only a couple of gall stone attacks so far this year - the most recent, a couple of weeks ago. My weight is hovering around 178kg and I can't seem to budge it. The attack was brought on by eating beef. No more beef fat bastard!

I am eating smaller portions and no fat. I exercise 5-6 days per week and nothing. I thought I had lost 6 kgs there, but some of that had been weight I had put back on. By the way, the scales I bought only went up to 180. I couldnt get them to work for some time.

I am at a loss at the moment. I am taking a digestive suppliment and I am having yakult each day. But I just started that.

I am only writing this out of guilt. We will see if I post again any time soon ...

I'm pathetic, I admit it!

OK, so I'm pathetic. I have not kept up with this blog at all. It is the same with every diary I have ever tried to keep. I go for a while, but then, something happens, and I just stop. It's like rote learning. I never did get the hang of it!

So a quick update. Life this year has been nothing short of hell from time to time. At other times I have been just keeping my head above water but the upshot has been that much of the time I have been depressed and unmotivated. I have been drinking far too much as a form of self medication and I have, as always, turned to food as my comfort.

I have been keeping an ultra-low-fat diet as before and I have been swimming every day bar Sundays and am now avaraging 1km in the water each day. But my portion sizes are out of control as is my grazing on things. The worst part though is that the scales that I have been using to weigh myself have been removed. I was pretty cheesed off about this and went looking for some more - but to no avail. Today I bought myself a new set of scales and we will see what the damage is tomorrow morning. Not looking forward to it.

Has it been this long?

Has it been this long already? Man, I feel bad about letting this go.

So, an update: I have now lost 26.7kgs and I am still swimming every day.

I worked out that the fifty laps I do of my mate's pool adds up to 500 metres. I am pretty happy with that!

Many of my clothes don't fit me and my belts are really important.

I guess the only thing that I have been bad with is this blog. I will try to do better.

Swimming

Well, once again my lack of motivation has gotten the better of me and I have failed to leep the entries in this blog up to date. I have not given up on my goal of losing weight by any means, but I have not been bothered to keep the blogging habit.

I weighed myself on the 25th of January and I weighed 178.9kg. That is another 3.5kg in four-ish weeks. I am on track still!

I have been swimming almost every day and the few days that I have missed have been to persistent and painfull back injuries. The swimming has been so good for me as it helps to strengthen my back as well as to give me regular exercise.

Wish me luck!

New Year's Resolutions

Well, I have been remiss in my posting to this blog. It is true. But the good news is that I have not been remiss in my efforts to lose weight. I weighed myself on Dec 31, 2007 and the total was 182.4kg. That still seems like a lot I grant you, but it is still an improvement on the starting weight of 195kg.

This year I want to lose another 25-30kgs. I am giving myself a range because I don't like absolutes and don't trust them as a rule. The fact of the matter is though, I think that 25kgs is quite doable and I would like to do better during the next fifty odd weeks.

Well, there it is in black and white. Or is it white and black? Whatever it is, I am committed now. Damn the torpedoes, full speed ahead!

Galling Experience

Once again I am scared out of my head because I have had a minor gallstone attack.

Yes I will admit that I was eating too much at the time, but it was hardly the worst sort of thing to be eating. Low fat everything and nothing that was particularly bad. I have probably made the mistake of eating too much volume of food again and it is once again time to reign it in. But it still galls me, so to speak.

I really didn't think that I had been doing that badly. I guess I was wrong.

In the end last night I made myself throw up so that I would not ingest any more of the food that I had been eating. It was a horrifying experience. I took a valium to settle the panic that was rising in me and sat down with a massager on my back in the vain hope that it would shake loose any little stone that were stuck. After about half an hour I felt tired - I always do with valium - and the pain had mostly gone away.

Today I have been very ginger and careful about what I ate. Friut mainly with a very small amount of pasta for dinner.

This thing sucks man.

Encouragement

Well I finally found somewhere to weigh myself yesterday and I was quite pleased with the result. If anyone had told me even five years ago that I would clock in at 186.6kg I would have been horrified. Right now, I am rather pleased with my progress.It is a weight-loss schedule that I need to keep up though. about 1kg per week is quite doable and I amencouraged once more.